Category Everyday Madness

Coming home

I feel like a prodigal child. If a home means a place where you are most comfortable, in terms of my career that would be teaching and research. I have been doing both since I started working, but separately, alternately. There were times when I had to give up one over the other. I have […]

Youth by Daughter

Shadows settle on the place, that you left. Our minds are troubled by the emptiness. Destroy the middle, it’s a waste of time. From the perfect start to the finish line. And if you’re still breathing, you’re the lucky ones. ‘Cause most of us are heaving through corrupted lungs. Setting fire to our insides for […]

Something to Write About

While waiting for my flight back to Manila, I read a post from Lang Leav’s facebook page. It says: Take me someplace where I can feel something – I want to give away my heart. Tell me his name so I can know love when it speaks to me. Give me someone I can write about. […]

Maynila

Nag-impake ako paalis, diba? Sabi ko lalayasan na kita. Sabi ko kailangan kong lumayo at kalimutan ka. Sabi ko di na kita babalikan… Dalawang malaking kahon lang ang dala ko palayo sa’yo. Naisip ko, mas mabuti nang kaunti ang dala para mabilis ang paggalaw. Mukha tuloy akong tanga nang lumipat ako sa bago kong bahay. […]

Lost and Broken

I am not in church or in my apartment, or in a cozy coffee shop as I am writing this. I stayed overnight in a hotel in Naga just because I didn’t want to stay alone in a huge, empty house with an uncomfortable folding bed. Also because the power was out in the whole […]

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Panaginip

Napanaginipan na naman kita kagabi, sa dinami-rami ng gabi, at sa dinami-rami ng mga taong pwede kong mapanaginipan. Kung totoo ang sinasabi nila tungkol sa mga panaginip, maaaring sumagi na naman ako sa isip mo o ikaw sa isip ko. Nakakatawa. Maaaring sa pagitan ng mga espasyo, panahon at ng magkaiba nating realidad  ay nagagawa […]

Sipon lang ang peg

I don’t remember when I stopped writing. Maybe it was after grad school, when all the inevitability of coming back home and facing my fears of reality swallowed all the things I have to say. Or maybe that time when I decided to shut up and hide all the joy I was feeling because I […]

In Denial

Kung ilalarawan ko ang takbo ng utak ko ngayon, hindi ko siya mailalarawan. Wala siya ngayong porma, hindi malinaw ang direksyon, masalimuot, magulo, malabo, walang kulay, walang buhay at gumagana na lang dahil may hininga pa ako. Paminsan-minsan, may pakonti-konting pagsundot at pagkiliti sa kamalayan, pero mabilis mapawi. Mas pinipili kong hindi muna mag-isip sa […]

Random Rant No.1

Ilang beses ko nang binubuksan ang pahinang ito, nagbabaka-sakaling magkakaroon na ng lakas ng loob na isulat kung ano man ang tumatakbo sa utak. Makailang ulit na, kaya lang laging nauuwi sa wala. Makailang ulat ko nang sinusubukang buhayin ang pagsusulat ko tulad  nito pero laging nauudlot, nahihiya, nagtatago. Hindi ko alam kung dahil sa sobrang […]

Ang tumatakbo sa utak ko ngayong madaling-araw na hindi ako makatulog

Insomnia. Or dahil sa naka-dalawang tasa ako ng kape. Or dahil ang ingay ng kapitbahay naming naglalamay. Ewan. Basta hindi ako makatulog. Sangkaterbang isipin ang nag-o-occupy sa utak ko, hindi ko naman alam saan patungo o kung may patutunguhan ba. Yup, lost ako. Hindi ito ‘yung tipo ng drama ko noong nakaraan. Kung lost ako […]